UNLOVING SPIRIT – Part One
If you look into the mirror and you don't think you are the "fairest of them all," you may have an Unloving spirit looking back at you! An Unloving spirit attaches itself to you to make you feel rejected and cause you to reject yourself. It makes you feel unclean, unworthy and like you don't measure up. It makes you feel that you are no good. When you look in the mirror, you don't like what you see. When you hear your voice, you don't like the way it sounds. When people look at you, you think they hate you. You can see it in their eyes. So you spend all your time debating with yourself as to whether you belong on this planet or not. You stand in front of the mirror and comb your hair this way and then that way. You look at this wrinkle; you look at that sag. You look at those eyes... the same old eyes that stare at you every morning in the mirror. You spend your whole day in a world of "not measuring up." This person doesn't like me. That person doesn't like me. God does not like me. I do not even like myself. Why was I born? You start replaying the same old unkind messages that were spoken to you in the past and they become your life. The evidence that an Unloving spirit has come to make its abode with you is that you are constantly struggling with yourself. That is its nature and it needs you as a medium of expression. When you have an Unloving spirit it wants to go on stage. You are the puppet and it is the hand that moves you. You are like a puppet going through the motions by the hand of someone or something else that is making you say, do and think. This is one of the greatest bondages known to mankind.
An Unloving spirit comes because you have been rejected, usually beginning in your own families. When someone who is supposed to represent God to you treats you badly, it creates a breach that only God can heal. Many times an Unloving spirit comes into you because you are a victim. The people victimizing you will tell you it's all your faults and they would not be victimizing you if you had not been bad in a certain way. This happens in marriages, in families and in any relationship. God intended the man to be in charge to represent Him as Father and to be to the wife, as Christ is to the Church. Any violation of that produces an Unloving spirit.
Hebrews 4:13 Neither is there any creature that is not manifest in his sight: but all things are naked and opened unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do.
You have to identify that part of you that is not of God and make it your enemy. Identify those feelings you have when you cannot look someone in the eye, those feelings that cause you to withdraw in Fear, those feelings that come when someone says you are beautiful and you think, "No, I am not." Identify those feelings that are within you that constantly accuse you to yourself. Those feelings are your enemy because they are not from God and they are not even from you. They are the voices and the presence of the Unloving, unclean spirit and every spirit that answers to them. They have invaded your spirit and your soul and have become part of your nature.